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Fathers and daughters…

Fathers and daughters…
I’ve been working on my book these last few weeks, which has really got me thinking as to what it should look like, what it should say, what emotions it should evoke, etc. I’ve always wanted it to be for and all about Charlotte. Knowing that I probably will not be around for a good part of her life makes me sad. But it also opens up the opportunity I have to be there for her in words. I want the book to provide a snapshot of what life was like for us as a struggling family during my illness.  And I also want it to be something she can always rely on for answers to common questions and pearls of...
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Building a good team…

Building a good team…
Throughout my cancer fight, I have had to build a team of people, each with different roles, but sharing the same philosophy: to win. In building this team, I had to select people that were like me and wanted to be aggressive. My team is all like-minded and driven by the same goal: to pull out all of the stops and ultimately win. Last week, I had to fire my first team-member. She was a new member, a nurse that was assigned to my case by the home health care company that is helping me recover. She was a very nice lady, but I learned quickly that her goals were not the same as mine. My current goal is to...
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Don’t be a hero…

Don’t be a hero…
About 9 weeks ago, I was sitting “more or less” in this same spot.  At home, on oxygen, and trying to bring myself back to life.  How did I get myself in the same position you might ask?  It’s a legitimate question and a good segue into one of my parables: “Don’t be hero.” This time I Iistened to myself, and practiced what I preached, and so far it is doing the trick. Last Monday, June 3rd, my body gave out.  The perfect storm for a setback was created – the physical trauma I had previously experienced mixed with the exhausting but fun (!) trip to Santa Barbara, and in particular...
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Choose your friends wisely…

Choose your friends wisely…
This is one of the most important decisions you will ever make. You will call on them for things that you will not know until they happen, through sickness and health, good times and bad. How do you know if you have chosen your friends well?  You will know when life gets rough. I have chosen well. As many of you know, I had a CT scan of my lungs, neck, and abdomen on Wednesday May 15th. The results of this scan were extremely important (not that they all aren’t), but these results were hopefully going to show us that the pace of growth in my lungs had slowed, that no new lung tumors were developing...
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My special friend…

My special friend…
Charlotte met two special friends in pre-school. They are twins. Their names are Aurya and Rhea. For Kindergarten, they had to go to different schools, so maintaining their friendships was going to take some effort. I adore those two sweet girls. And I adore their parents, Sommana and Tanya. Fortunately we have been able to get together enough to maintain our family relationship. It is one I truly value. So now you have the context. About a month ago, in the middle of my malaise, I received an email telling me that Rhea chose me as a person she “most admired” and could I come to an event at her...
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20 Minutes…

20 Minutes…
What did you do with it today? I took a walk on a glorious day. I did it without oxygen. I had a lot on my mind. I really felt the warm sunshine dig into my shoulders. It made me think of Vitamin D, and that everyone should take it. I made sure I felt each breath. I thought about my cancer, and the fact that I have another scan coming up in 12 days. I cried about that. I thought about how lucky I am that my parents were back at home to take care of me. I cried about that too. I’ve been crying a lot more lately, not sure why. I want to live, I really, really, do. I cried again, but then I thought...
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